I was 11 years old the first time I thought about killing myself.

Full of hopelessness, I tip toed into the kitchen and brought the bottle of advil to my room. I had heard of people overdosing on pills. Due to my innocence, advil were the only pills I knew about. So I swallowed a handle of them hoping for the best. The best being death. But it doesn't come.

Glancing into the bottles there's only 4 pills left.

How many did those people take?

Thinking surely id be in trouble if i finished off the advil and it didn't work, id have to explain this little event to my mom. I certainly did not want that.

Disappointed to still be alive, I continue on.