It's that time again when everything starts to feel like an insult.

You're suddenly picking fights you can't even finish. You're suspicious of nearly every human.. mainly their intentions.

And you've come to the conclusion that surely they hate you.

This feeling lands like a gut punch.

You replay the scene in your mind again and again thinking what you could've said differently and chronically over analyzing what they meant. And even though you weren't entirely sure you are sure that you're mad at them.

And if you're introspective enough you may have realized that beneath all of this,  they have somehow hurt your feelings and no matter how hard you try.. you can't tell if it was intentional or not.

But inevitably, in the back of your mind you've decided that it certainly is intentional and that's when you're ready to burn it all down.

You may find yourself asking "who is this version of me and why does she think everyone hates her?" and also "why did she seem to low-key hate everyone? What's her fucking problem?"

If this sounds familiar, let me explain why this happens.

Your hormones are doing a dramatic crash-and-burn routine behind the scenes.

In your luteal phase a few major shifts happen:

estrogen drops

serotonin drops

cortisol rises

your nervous system becomes extra sensitive

 

For some people, this causes mild PMS.

For others?

We go straight to the PMDD depths of hell.

Premenstrual dysphoric disorder.

Yes... it's as bad as it sounds.

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PMDD = “My entire world just imploded and I don’t know why.”

It’s deep, emotional, overwhelming, and feels completely out of proportion to what’s happening around you. It's painful. It's panic stricken. It's a state of terror. 

You might experience:

• hopelessness

• rage or irritability

• shutdowns

• anxiety spikes

• overstimulation

• sensitivity to rejection

• brain fog

• emotional numbness

• identity confusion (“I don’t feel like myself”)

• crying for no reason

• feeling unlovable or disconnected

• intense overwhelm or despair

• suicidal thoughts and more

and then...nearly as soon as your period starts… the fog lifts.
You breathe.
You think clearly again.
You’re like, “Oh. There I am.”

 

PMDD isn’t you being dramatic.
It’s your brain reacting to your natural hormone changes like they’re explosions.

You’re not “crazy.”
You’re sensitive to hormonal shifts ...deeply, physically, chemically sensitive.

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Your brain in the luteal phase struggles to:

regulate emotion

filter sensory input

process stress

keep perspective

handle conflict

access motivation

So small problems feel huge.
Normal stress feels impossible.
Relationships feel fragile.

You feel fragile.

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 How You Know It Might Be PMDD

✔ The symptoms hit 1–2 weeks before your period

✔ The symptoms disappear once bleeding starts

✔ The emotional intensity feels out of character

✔ The cycle repeats every month

✔ It affects your relationships, work, or sense of self

If you nodded at more than two of those…
you might be dealing with PMDD, not “just PMS.”

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Here's the truth.....the version of you who spirals into crazytown isn’t the real you. 
She’s the hormonally hijacked version.

And she deserves compassion, not shame.

Feeling overwhelmed, borderline insane, suicidal, intense rage, hopeless, or emotionally explosive isn’t a normal PMS response.

But it is explainable.
And treatable.
And manageable.

PMDD doesn’t mean something is wrong with you ...
it means something is happening to you.

And once you understand the pattern,
you can finally stop blaming yourself and start supporting yourself.

If there's any question. I can answer for you specifically, smash that green chat button and I'll be happy to help.